I have to say, looking for a place to live is not my favorite thing... I know I would be happy with any house above my price range, so what? It is very hard to be objective when I am emotionally compromised. It is times like these, where I suppose I should sit down and really think about what is most important. But, sitting down right now is not an option. Our lives have been so full of change these last 5 years that I am just not certain of a whole lot right now... do we find a house that will suit our needs for right now, or do we try to get into a place for the long haul?
We really don't want to move again anytime soon, but past experience has taught us to be prepared for change.... all the time!
Just last week I found out we are expecting AGAIN. And even though we are both really excited (and apparently not waiting to let the world know) it proves my point.
I was reflecting on just how much we have accomplished these last 5 years... or changed... or added... and I was thinking about how many couples dissolve over the slightest amount of change.... and we have only drawn closer through it all. I really love my life. It feels like a whirlwind most of the time, but I wouldn't have it any other way.
Being back home, I have a lot of people tell me I've got my hands full... so far no one says it in a negative way, just an observant one. It helps that my kids are cute and Alice is so social. Anyway, I can only imagine what people will say when I have another one.. lol...
Ok I suppose since I am finally sitting down, I ought to get to that list.... or a nap.
Showing posts with label Sanity. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Sanity. Show all posts
Tuesday, December 18, 2012
Sunday, May 27, 2012
COOKIES!!!
I have been SOOOOO bad this past week! I had lost 4 pounds last month during the first phase of my 90-day day Beachbody challenge, and I am pretty certain I put them all back on... I am afraid to find out. My clothes still fit the same, but I feel TERRIBLE!!
I had been feeling great until all the stresses of the last two weeks caught up with me. Darn you, stress-eating! I have never been quite the victim of stress-eating as I have been these last two weeks. I have been revolving around those darn fundraiser cookies. So I cooked up the rest of them today, and what doesn't get eaten by my family is going straight into the trash! It is sooo disgusting! I used to eat like this ALLL the time! I don't remember feeling this gross... although, I do remember being this depressed... I am certain it's related. And to top it off, I missed three workouts over the past two weeks, and I am feeling it!
I need something different. I feel like trying a strictly whole food, plant-based diet... not added oil or sugar... ONLY good things! Granted, we are mostly plant-based, but we sure do pack on the non-dairy butter, and eat a TON of things cooked with oil. Anyway, until I can find an appropriate balance I really feel my body BEGGING me to go back to the basics... at the least, I hear it begging me to stop eating all those stinkin' cookies!
Moving on...
As a mom, I struggle to find my individuality. I have been feeling so run-down lately, and while a lot of the physical run-down-ness is due to my poor diet choices, the rest is simply because I feel like I am falling short in everything I am trying to accomplish. I find myself basing my success on someone else's health or mood. The best I can do or give simply isn't good enough, even though it is. My success cannot be measured be the way things around me are running... but that is how I see it. If my house is a mess, so is my mind; if my kids are sick, so is my spirit; if Spencer is upset, it's all my fault. I struggle finding a way to keep myself together if everything around me is falling apart. Who am I? I know I am a wife, a mom, a daughter, and a sister; but where did Ashley go? I used to have so many interests, opinions, and hobbies that had nothing to do with family... not that I miss those by any means, but I feel like I haven't replaced things with my own stamp yet.
I am a wife and a mother first, for sure. But I think it is time the fun bubbly Ashley come out every once in a while. Just for sanity's sake. That is all...
I had been feeling great until all the stresses of the last two weeks caught up with me. Darn you, stress-eating! I have never been quite the victim of stress-eating as I have been these last two weeks. I have been revolving around those darn fundraiser cookies. So I cooked up the rest of them today, and what doesn't get eaten by my family is going straight into the trash! It is sooo disgusting! I used to eat like this ALLL the time! I don't remember feeling this gross... although, I do remember being this depressed... I am certain it's related. And to top it off, I missed three workouts over the past two weeks, and I am feeling it!
I need something different. I feel like trying a strictly whole food, plant-based diet... not added oil or sugar... ONLY good things! Granted, we are mostly plant-based, but we sure do pack on the non-dairy butter, and eat a TON of things cooked with oil. Anyway, until I can find an appropriate balance I really feel my body BEGGING me to go back to the basics... at the least, I hear it begging me to stop eating all those stinkin' cookies!
Moving on...
As a mom, I struggle to find my individuality. I have been feeling so run-down lately, and while a lot of the physical run-down-ness is due to my poor diet choices, the rest is simply because I feel like I am falling short in everything I am trying to accomplish. I find myself basing my success on someone else's health or mood. The best I can do or give simply isn't good enough, even though it is. My success cannot be measured be the way things around me are running... but that is how I see it. If my house is a mess, so is my mind; if my kids are sick, so is my spirit; if Spencer is upset, it's all my fault. I struggle finding a way to keep myself together if everything around me is falling apart. Who am I? I know I am a wife, a mom, a daughter, and a sister; but where did Ashley go? I used to have so many interests, opinions, and hobbies that had nothing to do with family... not that I miss those by any means, but I feel like I haven't replaced things with my own stamp yet.
I am a wife and a mother first, for sure. But I think it is time the fun bubbly Ashley come out every once in a while. Just for sanity's sake. That is all...
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