Being home for a visit gave me a different perspective on what's important in life.
I left Utah feeling like I didn't really have any close friends. I have friends, but I didn't really feel that emotional connection one misses when they are away. I know there are a handful of people that I care about and vice versa, but I still felt out of place.
Since being back I have determined that in order to feel differently I guess I need to wedge my way in to the social circles and figure out where I fit in. It hasn't been easy so far, but we will see what happens. I guess life is just too busy for Utahns cuz when I try to get people together it just doesn't really work out... Oh well.
I miss my friends and family. Alas, at least I have fond memories to look back upon.
On another note, I learned a helpful insight during Sunday School while I was home.
The Lord allows us to make choices according to our agency. Through the Atonement we can be spared the harsh consequences of others' bad choices, IF the Lord sees fit. I know He has the power to spare us harsh consequences, but it may not be His will for me at the given time.
